giving up

today we sat there

and no, i don't really feel that way anymore

but still how nice it wud have been if, for once, somethin i wanted had happened

i know its silly

it was never possible

but a girl was dreamin

and in some fairy tales dreams come true

but i guess mine isn't a fairy tale

that's ok, i have things to keep me occupied

its not that i want it badly

its just that when i see everyone around me that has one

i kinda want one too

how sad is that

she says its conforming to pressure

but i disagree

its just me

its who i am

even if everyone else didn't have it, i wud still feel the same way

i try to hide it

but its not any use

its too obvious

i'm sorry if i am not that person

who knows how to get wat she wants

i tend to let nature take its course

i suppose this means that nature isn't so keen on this course for me

never mind

do your worst

i am goin to leave it up to you