monotone

i'm a little upset

i'm kinda scared

i thought all was fine

until i screwed up last week

now he's mad at me

and it might affect the glowing opinion he's supposed to give

what happens if its not wat i want it to be

what happens if this causes me to have to abandon my dream

i don't know

time is ticking to an end

i don't have enough minutes to do it all

at least not enough to do it all well

wat happens?

tell me....

giving up

today we sat there

and no, i don't really feel that way anymore

but still how nice it wud have been if, for once, somethin i wanted had happened

i know its silly

it was never possible

but a girl was dreamin

and in some fairy tales dreams come true

but i guess mine isn't a fairy tale

that's ok, i have things to keep me occupied

its not that i want it badly

its just that when i see everyone around me that has one

i kinda want one too

how sad is that

she says its conforming to pressure

but i disagree

its just me

its who i am

even if everyone else didn't have it, i wud still feel the same way

i try to hide it

but its not any use

its too obvious

i'm sorry if i am not that person

who knows how to get wat she wants

i tend to let nature take its course

i suppose this means that nature isn't so keen on this course for me

never mind

do your worst

i am goin to leave it up to you

first ever

lets see...

here are a few firsts for me...

last week, i got my first 'D'

for stats i mean, it was horrible

then yew weng went and taught me how to make an origami flower

dat was kinda scary dat he knew how to do that

i am havin my first a-voice meetin for the new sem

kinda leceh

for the first time, we sat nearer for moral

dat was actually a good idea

for the first time i watched a movie on my iPod

dat was amazing cos the resolution was amazing

so dats about it....

cool huh?

masochist

the craziness

makes you wanna rip your hair out

the lack of sleep, like a plague

constantly reminding

why do i do this again?

cos i'm a masochist

stop askin me why i wanna do it the hard way

like i said, i'm a masochist

ask me why one more time....

i think its for the fame

or maybe its a little girls dream of glory

-xoxo-

many idiots have pledged allegiance

adios....au revoir.....

bye swimmie.....

i am gonna miss you....

the early mornin calls to go cut hair.....

the shoppin for underwear....

the friends dat u were lending me....

i will be waiting when u get back....

muaxxx

-xoxo-