MAKIN UP FOR LOST TIME

wow.... its been one whole week since i blogged, so i got lots to say............ lets start with tuesday... dat was kinda boring a day...... lets move to wednesday.... ah wednesday.... dis was the day dat me n my peeps went to taman sea for their prefects MPT.... pls lar.... dat was just the cover story.... we all had ulterior motives for going there........ mainly we wanted to meet some very 'special' people.............. lets see, i wanted to see my ex and his 2 brothers, dinesh wanted to see them as well but he also wanted to see his baby sis (she's ok lar... nice lar but i refuse to comment further for fear of retribution ), adeline wanted to see all the above mentioned people and Ivy ( aaron's girl), aaron wanted to see his girl (duh...) weng hoe was goin cos ..... i dunno lar... he was jus goin but i ain't complainin cos he's the one dat gave us a ride there..... sher rin n sabs went cos they wanted to see some mysterious person (my bets that its a guy) n sin seanne went cos she's just mega popular n wanted to mingle with one fraction of her ppl in that skool..... hahah........ now dat you know why each of us went i can commence with telling you what happened........ i'ma skip the boring part n get straight to the good stuff....... the evaluation of all our motives..........

Ivy was VERY shy...... she didn't even come out and say hi

Ex- was very shy...... i think its cos my frens freaked him out when htye said that they knew so much about him (which was a lie of course)

ex-'s bro was jus nice lar... he didn't stick around for long enough for me to comment

well ther you have it my commentary

after the damn thing we walked all the way to secret recipe to makan.... after makan we meaning me, addie, dinesh n aaron walked all the way from taman sea back to skool.... dat was a long walk trust me, i took us half an hour...... but u noe wat, i didn't feel tired at all.... i guess when u r havin fun nothin is tiring.........n then me n addie actually went to atria n chill b4 walkin to sarah's hse, there we chill sum more then i went home took a shower n watched tv.... then i went for my singing class......... n dat is the end of wednesday

movin on to thursday........ it was sports day rund 2, so again i didn't go... i woke up late n watched my big fat greek wedding again........ oh my god.... then i rmbred my add maths project so i ran up to do it, that's when my idiot brother got home n he started a whole drama scene... i of course got all caught up in the whole thing n decided to be rebellious.... so i went to sleep at 6 with the intention of waking up later n doin my work my bozo over there was in bed but that back fired cos i couldn't get up n ended sleepin all the way until 6 the next mornin.......... u noe sumthin, 12 hrs sleep is the best thing in the world n i would recommend it for anybody... it makes you feel like a milllion bucks........ gawd i wish i cud do it again but i noe i can't cos i gotta start studyin.... would u believe i still haven't started? i am soooo dead..........

n now for friday..... fridaya nothin lar, the usual things, went to tuition, came home n now i am bloggin........ hehehehehehheheh

adios amigos

TURN BACK TIME

rmbr how i said dat my ex is ........bla bla bla........... well my best fren insists that they are onli frens, and guess wat i found actually persuading her to admit that it was more than that....... i hope she is right and that they are onli frens but if she were wrong, and there was somethin more, i think i could handle it.... i mean my therapist says that it will be just fine so i guess i should listen to the expert....... wat am i talkin about, my therapist is a 16 year old who this mornin was threatenin to commit suicide...... hahah...... i am absolutely lame......... oh well, some things in life u jus gotta live with....... hehe

neways, i was sitting thru a counselling session with my counsellor today for all my college stuff and i realised that she actually narrowed down my options to like one hand full..... my mum definitely painted a nicer picture... i mean according to her there is more than one institution that can finance me and thta i need to be excellent to get that kind of money but she nvr said it was impossible...... on the other hand, my teacher says that i hav 2 options, loan or JPA which means i mite end up doin medicine in indonesia....... gawd that is gonna giv me nightmares........
i wanna go somewhere cool like UK, aussie, canada or US not bloody indonesia....... haih..... i wonder wats gonna happen???

CONFUSED

my ex is in love with my best fren and i am still in love with him............ how cliche is dat? i noe i noe and i am not in the mood to explain the whole drama....... lets just put it this way.... i kinda still like him but he is way over me...... and i dunno maybe i am being a dog in the manger cos when we broke up i wanted him to be waitin 4 me til i was ready to giv it another go... now he is moving on....... i am sooo sad lar.... why can't it........... haiya.... i dunno wat i want.... i wanna but i don't wanna.......... pls lar... i askd him to call but he nvr did... is dat a sign? does dat confirm the fact that he likes her and not me anymore......... i hope not.... i wan him to call n say dat he wans to get back together.... but then again i dunno if i can be with him or not........... i am confused lar..... somebody help me.......... i am on the verge of tears.... i hav this weird feeling in my stomach........ no, i ain't gonna barf but i dunno wats happening........... i need sumone to tell me its all gonna be ok......... i need my mommy.... heheh..... quite childish but hey, everybody is allowed a few moments of vulnerability.... i guess i am experiencing mine now........... hahahahah....... but if anyone ever brings this up, i will DENY it......... trust me... don't try me.........

okies, i am done emo-ing, now lets get down to serious business......... do u noe dat it shud be a federal crime to force us to go to skool on saturday........ i mean come on.... its a saturday for god's sake............ i went to skool and my body rebelled so bad i came home and collapsed on my bed....... hahah....... oh well..... i am in my granma's home.... sitting on the floor of the cabin room n typing this... i hope u like my confessions...=)

IDIOTS MAKE BAD BROTHERS

THE DEVIL

i noe this is kinda bad but my brother has become a demon..... he used to be the sweetest thing but now he is just a demon child... he is constantly annoyin me and he kicks me... he thinks he is sooo great and he tries to act dumb whenever u point out the obvious(meaning he is wrong )... he will flip and throw this self pity party.... my poor mom has to deal with it until wee hours in the mornin when she has to go to work the next day... do u noe how ridiculous that is..... i dunno wat else to say.... rite now i wish he weren't around... give us all a break pls.....

well, today is Friday the 13th.... all this bad luck crap is jus bull shit..... nothin bad happened to me all day... in fact the weather was good, i got a few misunderstandings cleared up... all in all everythin was good.... in fact yesterday was a worse day.... i think it has sumthin to do with the fact that i kinda skipped skool... so i suppose that is why i felt so lethargic and heavy and dirty all day.... dat was bad.... i got my trial exam time table today.... it is not good.... it jus reminds me that i am about 1 month away from one of the most major exams of my life and i am hardly prepared.... god save me.... i need a miracle

WEIRD OCCURENCES

it is reali weird... sumthin happened to day... wait a lot of things happened today.... let me begin

weird occurence no. 1
every year i dread going for sports day.... its like a big no no for me... in fact in my dictionary sports day = holiday, but this year i decided that i should go for 2 reasons . 1 is cos i want that elusive perfect attendance record and 2 cos its my last chance to go to my high skool sports event. now here's the weirdness, when i want to go, they won't allow me. i mean they came up with some stupid rule that in order to enter the stadium you have to be wearin the new sports jerseys. and i don't think its worth the RM20 the jersey costs jus to go for 2 lousy sports days.... so i am gonna ruin my perfect record and stay home tmrw... tsk tsk... all cos i am cheap... heheh

weird occurence no. 2
u rmbr the girl i was bitchin about n i said she will be bitchin about me to the whole skool... well, i dunno if she did bitch about me... but today she did somethin ni9ce for me and i feel kinda guilty for bein such a hypocrite... well now, online, in front of the whole world i am issueing a public apology... i am sori for bitchin and i will never do it again... sori

so ok... it was not that many weird stuff but 2 is more than normal days..... well my idiot brother is tryin to drive me and my mum crazy... gotta go diffuse the situation......

B'DAY PICS

these are my birthday photos.... its a bit blur... blame my mum... she doesn't noe how to take a pic......i noe dat my birthday was a long time ago... but i jus tot it would be fun to immortalise the day.....




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TOO MUCH TO SAY...........TOO LITTLE TIME

i realise i haven't blogged in a few days... that's why this is gonna one very long post..... first let me begin with wat happened with the jelly bean fiasco.... i went and saw teacher and explained to her... she talked a lot, i can't say she was scolding cos she wasn't, she wasn't nagging either... she was just ....advising... that's it... she was givin me advice..... well nothin explosive happened and i am thankful for that......... that was on thursday.... then on friday.... it was career day in skool.... and i went to all the booths and u noe did wat every responsible high skool senior should be doing...... but after all the visiting and stuff... i kinda felt lost... i am not reali sure wat i wanna do anymore.... when i attended the talk about medicine, the guy said that if u wanna be a doctor u gotta have passion.... well i am not so sure if i have that passion he was talkin about......... maybe i wanna do somethin else... i dunno lar..... its hopeless

well that was skool.... now time for a lil social dissing.... yesterday nite.... my cousins from US came over so we threw them a dinner party.... god, my family is noisy... we were talkin and laughin and 30 of us is not the entire group yet.... but u noe wats the weirdest thing.... my american cousins are extremely shy.... aaliyah had her head down the entire time.... mary was completely quiet, and here i thought american girls were loud and funny..... man was i wrong.... in fact my other cousins and i were way louder than them.... but it was fun lar.... i mean i am not exactly very excited about goin to these sort of stuff but its not that bad... i mean u get to see evryone and talk to them and well its fun.... plus RM500 from ur uncle is not that bad either.....